Giving Thanks

Patience is a virtue, but it certainly isn't one that comes natural for me. For as long as I can remember, I have had such a hard time waiting for things. My wonderful hubby is my polar opposite in this arena. He is content to sit and wait patiently, while I run around like a chicken with my head cut off, trying desperately to speed up time.

The older I get, the more I am convicted about my lack of patience. God seems to love to teach me lessons when it comes to waiting. The biggest lesson being that of the last 5 years when he called me to wait before becoming a mom. During this time I experienced a roller coaster of emotions, and many times doing my familiar dance of trying to "speed things up" so I didn't have to endure waiting anymore. Every time God brings me to this place, He also shows me my own inadequacy. I could have created a Powerpoint presentation to show God that it was time for us to become parents, but this isn't what He wanted us to do. He wanted us to wait. We still don't know why it was 5 years, but I do know that what we learned during this time is priceless. And I know in my own stubborn ways that He was taking the time to slow me down, to speak tenderly to me, to show me what it means to "Be Still".

So here we are just a week from Thanksgiving and lately I've found myself repeating my same patterns of restlessness. Sure you could say I have a good excuse to be frustrated. After all, we are basically homeless right now and the babies are due in 6 weeks. That's enough to send me running for the hills! But God has brought me to yet another place of waiting. I can think up schemes all day of how to make us get our house faster, but it won't do any good. Instead, I need to again "Be Still". More than even that, I need to be thankful for this time. God has caused this wait for a reason, and while I don't again know why, how can I doubt Him? He only does what is for His glory and our good, so how can any of that really be a bad thing?

In reality, I have SO MUCH to be thankful for. One of which is sitting right in my lap...these 3 little miracles that God gave us the grace to wait for. So time to start remembering all the blessings our faithful God gives me. Time to stop complaining. Time to reflect on the lessons to be learned. And time to wait on the Lord.